bibpolar blast and sickness

Have been away from here for several days since I have been pretty sick.What was a viral cold turned into bacterial infection in ears and lungs which I have done everything in my power to get rid of. I did not recognize it coming. Not only do I have Bipolar, I also have chronic asthma and chronic pain which has not been determined the cause of.
3 weeks ago, I had extra bad pain on the side of my hips above my normal body chronic ache. I had not had this hip pain for a long time and because of my chronic pain took it to be just the regular chronic pain worsening( though I had read an article in Reader's digest about a cold in the hip and way back when I had a lot of colds the cold would start with excruciating hip pain.) I had drawn by trial and error that the hip pain was related to being sick somehow and was excited to see this article in reader's digest. I really believed it was the cold manifesting in my hip as article stated.
I mentioned this to a DR. some time back and he had "answers" you know what I mean? Maybe not all Dr's are this way, but the ones I have dealt with do not like to hear something from a patient that does not go along with the pedigree they have. I am just "crazy woman." That is the feeling I get and with my extreme sensitivity via bipolar, I am right about what I am actually hearing come through  a lot in this category.
Well my hip hurt and they are trying to figure out if I have arthritis after so many years because of lack of insurance-which is another story. I- at first felt like the hip must prove I am going into far worse arthritis. I thought fleetingly about how the pain used to come when I was sick, but I did not think I was at all sick.
I had other sick signs. I was very depressed -normal with extreme dark pole of bipolar, but this depression was an unusually bad and different form, but I just thought It was normal bipolar.
I also started clogging up in my eyes, nose. I began sneezing like I was wanting to win the sneeze prize in Guinness World record book. I attributed all the prior things to my allergies since I struggle so much with being hit with 2nd hand smoke and animal dander I cannot always catch  and control anyplace I go. Not even in my own house. It is dragged in with the "dirt."
I went on a week like this. A couple days I conked out and took long naps-which is very unlike me. I thought it was the medicine I take for the bipolar since it can cause me to be tired sometimes, but I was so extra fatigued-more than the usual. I still did not recognize I was sick though.
A week and a 1/2 into it feeling terrible I woke up to a sore throat. Blam-hit upside head. This is not allergies and my asthma, nor is it bipolar, though I think the bipolar depression was  worsened extremely  by the sickness. It was not my medication and the far worse pain was being sick.
This is my introduction. I will try by tomorrow or at least Friday How horrifying bipolar can be when you are sick for me anyway. this would probabnly be the worst part if bipolar and the only blast it might give is splintering pain of a bomb blast of trepidation.

To be continued:  Part 2............

Bipolar Blast. #2 (Thoughts Daily I have been Struggling with .)

On a group on Face book, I wrote a small post of dealings with day to day bipolar and my thoughts of confusion it brings me. 

      Thanks Carrie, my point was the confusion I get from people saying bipolar is illness, others saying it is not, you have control over it. Which is it? I have had it since I was 2-4 years old and did not even get told until I was 40 I had it, but something was wrong. And I do get Psychosis.Then I get told the devil has no part and then I really think he does or maybe it is just mania thinking" that wow the devil is really picking on me so I must be extra spiritual" Even to family saying I am like Eve blaming my bad behavior on the devil. But in my own experience I have done as you said and he has fled or I just feel better because it is like a placebo.I had thought that my bipolar either side depression an or mania kick in and then tthe devil takes it over and either he or God uses it. then I think it is my own imagination and go into unbelief and think I have never been right with God except for my illness so it is my illness not me and then told self esteem, I would not be manic on my meds, blah, blah. I read different in books. That is my experience with the whole thing. and then Christians not understanding or believing. I do not know how people find the time to do this stuff. I just want to be able to read my Bible.Always something must be given up. (I have done journaling, but just another thing "I have" to do.) and to keep track of which gives me anxiety. I get overwhelmed if I have too much of anything. ( Example: I am on stumble and many people have likes in K's, I am bothered that I am going over 100 items and will want to get rid of some favorites) I know alot of people get a lot out of it, but I do not like reading what I write. May be the bipolar. I have a blog, but even hate reading it to edit. causes me anxiety. I am doing a series on my bipolar, hoping to help someone so it is kind of journaling in a way, but I do do other subjects. Why I could never settle on any college degree, I am up and down back and forth loving everything and staying home I can be that-everything. this is just what I am dealing with now in my life.