I pinch of this, a KICK of that that is what this little BLOG is made of. My life in the poetry of music. Kaleidoscope of images and colors .POTPOURRI of my likes and dislikes. Finding adventure to read and FOLLOW. WISDOM in writing. A friend forever. This is my blog.
Must be nice to be as wonderful as some people, to be a type B- relaxed person who nothing really bothers and can be simple. Or a phony that no matter what can always say the right thing and everyone thinks they are wonderful on the outside Or to not have extreme emotions coupled with strong personality, Unlike me, a lot you do think before you act and do something that horrifies you that you have done and causes offense to ones you are praying the best for. I try hard to allow God to live in me and live by his word, but I do fail. And one thing I have noticed is that some people you never get a comment from are suddenly there to pick apart the wrong in 1posting- When it was only 1 of 20 you posted well? Goes back to garden of EDEN-only confirms the bible.
I have learned in 26 years of marriage with choleric temperament driving melancholy and bipolar that even my spouse is mortified and ashamed of me, I do understand we are opposite poles on personality scales and is really hard with our different temperaments to get along at all.Hurts, But my Savior........
He is even upset if I post him as DH and even say anything good concerning him. Fear of man. I am the opposite, I have so little fear I can do foolish stuff, Like post things in a hurry with choleric and uncaring- with in your face type attitude and sometimes with me rushing so hard and driven , I do not check the source or am so time driven.
Those that called me on one this morning were totally right with their complaints. I apologized for offending them. I have no excuse for this foolishness, but still I do not understand why it is only a "wrong " post you get 20 comments and barely a like on posts that are worthy-not because of me-but God. That is what I have against these.
Tears fall as I post, You see, I really do not want to harm anyone or offend. At least one poster-and this is the one my heart breaks for- he is lost and I want him saved so badly. He hates God I think. He even was so mad saying Tebow!!!!!-because Broncos are an idol-when game before Superbowl was lost- He said something like "Where was Tebow's God ? "Broncos lost" I do not know if he was claiming it Tebow's fault or Gods? Or perhaps both? he does not understand God at all. Sad.
Anyway, I said all this to say: Bipolar manic can overwhelm me. I am not making excuse, but I can get so excited with drive from my personality, God and bipolar mania, that I do act stupid sometimes like this. Without thinking I just post something with a " who cares" attitude. This morning : Psa_44:15 My confusion is continually before me, and the shame of my face hath covered me, and This on may fit: Pro_25:8 Go not forth hastily to strive, lest thou know not what to do in the end thereof, when thy neighbour hath put thee to shame. I am sorry before God. Will I learn, God will teach me and I will, just I am stubborn and Mischievous at times : Pro 6:16 These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him:
Pro 6:17 A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,
Pro 6:18 An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief,
Pro 6:19 A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.
I am guilty of several of these and no better than a homosexual when committing these since all of these are an abomination unto God also.
God will use my Bipolar for his glory. yes, I have no excuse, but I was given the fact that though I sometimes wonder if lost people see any of my witness, they must and just ignore or they would not have commented on this one. God will even use this for something beautiful hence: 1Co_1:27 But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; and Rom 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. And: 1Co_12:22 Nay, much more those members of the body, which seem to be more feeble, are necessary: Also: Pro_30:26 The conies are but a feeble folk, yet make they their houses in the rocks;
I am counting on him to do the above, in spite of my sin and faults and use my bipolar gift to do above what I ask and think and always in victory and triumph according to His mighty working and grace. Why I am thankful for my Bipolar in spite of the negatives. God has forgiven and will ues it as I seek His face and trust in faith that he: Ecc_3:11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
I am trying to add nicer slide show on here. I got a beautiful large one in place, but there are certain pictures in amongst pictures I love that I do not like and do not agree with my heavenly concept. I am trying to figure out how to remove ones I detest. Please be patient with me. I adore most of the pictures, but someone elses idea of heaven may not fit mine. (Example:temples to gods that are not in my opinion-to the One true God)
Love dipping my mind, hands and feet into about anything that is pure clean and crisp. 5 kids, some out of the nest and married, some at home. Live on a small rural farm with 2 dogs: one poodle and one boogle. 17 chickens so far, but eggs are setting. One guinea fowl. 2 adorable pekin ducks. 1 beautiful goose and a pond load of fish.
But my name is not Old McDonald. Married for 26 years to my sweetheart.